03.01.07
suicide and after
Someone made a post in one of my FA groups that has me wondering what the rest of you might think. I’m going to copy the original post and then a couple responses and then my own. Let me know how the rest of you would respond to their questions.
Posted: Feb 28, 2007 1:21 PM
we need something new to talk about..
it seems this group gets lots of replies about boozing topics. what about a death topic?
who here would rather be dead than living with FA? Or, if you don’t feel that anymore, who used to?
Posted: Feb 28, 2007 5:53 PM
Hey! That was me too! I used to hate myself so much that I wanted to smash me up pretty good. I was suicidal from 10 to 24 years old. Even attempted 3 times. Well, 2 were more like ‘gestures’, but the third was planned to a ‘T’. When it didn’t work, I just gave up; suicide is such hard work.
But death is attractive only because of what you believe is on the other side of the fence.
If I believed that heaven and seven beautiful virgins were waiting for me, I’d be killing jews and Americans right now.
If I believed in a Christian heaven, that’d be better than life.
If I believed in reincarnation, I’d hope for a better deal of the cards and keep offing myself until I was born perfect..
I find it funny that we have a thousand religions, each one with a different theory of the afterlife, yet each claims to be the “right one”. Instead of asking which is correct, maybe we should think about the possibility that religions are just made by man to alleviate our fear of death. A lot like when our dog or cat dies, we say we’ll see them later. We create a new rule for heaven, the way heaven was man-made in the fist place.
My own theory is just that we cease to exist. No heaven or second changes or ‘higher plateaus’. Humans are either arrogant or naïve to think that we’re any more special than any other living being.
So now I realize that I was given ONE LIFE by my parents. Not a great one, could’ve been better…but when I’m gone, there won’t be anything left where I sit. So I’m just gonna ramble on until I can’t ramble anymore. When it gets too pathetic and I’m sitting in 2 weeks worth of my own urine and feces, I’ll figure out a way to end it.
So it makes me wonder Noodle…what do you think is on the other side?
Posted: Mar 1, 2007 4:46 PM
In the end, FA will take the life of its’ host…so if the host kills the FA first, it’s a small victory.
I’m going to use that statement as a signature in my e-mail. 
This is a very good topic though. It’s very interesting to read all of your opinions. Especially since for the past few weeks I have been so unsure as to what I myself believe. For the biggest part of my life I was atheist. Then for a while that went to unsure. Then for the last two years that unsurity went to a reliance on GOD having to be real or I had no hope. Now though I’m not so sure. If GOD is up there I must’ve done something so bad that HE doesn’t see me anymore. I do hope that heaven is real for everyone else but for me if it is real I don’t want to go there. I’d just ruin it for everyone else.
I hope GOD and heaven are real but if they aren’t I think maybe when we die our minds sort of go into this unending sleep where we relive our lives over and over nonstop. Deja vu? Then it would be best to live your life to the fullest b/c you could be stuck in this life forever. Who’s to say we aren’t already in that dreamstate?
I have been suicidal since I was eleven or so and not b/c of the FA but b/c of my life and what’s in it. Actually I’m very seriously wanting to slit my wrists and watch as the pain flows from me until there’s none left right now. I wouldn’t be hurting others b/c no one wants me in the way anyway. Everyone knows I want to die and no one cares enough to try to give me a reason to live. There isn’t one. No need to try.
Anonymous said,
March 9, 2007 at 7:42 pm
What is on the other side question – what you are looking for – is on the “other side” . This world is just a place where we are on a journey to get there. I do pray you find THE GOD, and His Son as your Savior. HE is THE way, and the life. God truly bless you.
Lyssa said,
September 27, 2007 at 6:07 am
I used to be supportive of suicide. I realise that there are people who really have no where else to turn and that death is their only means of escape. However, as the ex-girlfriend of a constant self-mutilator it is so hard to watch someone you love carve themself up and all because of some fault that only they can see. At one point, I joined him, seeing faults in myself that in my head seemed illogical and yet so right. These days I love who I am and I enjoy life. I don’t have a god and I am hesitant to set my faith in any religion. I am comfortable with death, I’m a student nurse, I need to be. Hopefully you will become comfortable with yourselves and life. Remember, you don’t need a god to protect you or guide you through life. We make our own destinies, we control who we are and where we get to. Cherish life, it only happens once.
s said,
October 4, 2007 at 1:31 am
not a great opsion
Amy Morris said,
November 12, 2007 at 1:41 am
nobody really knows whats on the other side but i think what we do in this life matters in the next
B said,
December 17, 2007 at 10:58 pm
In the end, FA will take the life of its’ host…so if the host kills the FA first, it’s a small victory.
Hi My name is B,,i read what u wrote..i have felt and still feel that way too..with regards to how much i hate living,,yet i long to live happy..I may be suffering from depression or something because i know when im not feeling down..life actually feels beautiful..ilove all the good things life has but am always disappointed with something that goes wrong,,poeple make me sick when they treat me with such dishonor or disrespect,,it seems like the nicer i am the meaner people are,,like theres always someone or something out there trying to ruin my happiness..all i ask for..all ANYONE asks for is peace and happiness and if God so call loves us..why doesnt he provide this..why dopeople always say hes testing us or tough times make us appreciate the good,,well i would appreciate it if tough times would just go away and leave me alone.Why r we here..work , and die? watch our loved ones perish..i dont get it..isnt LOVE supposed to NOT hurt,,so why does GODs love hurt so much?Why r we here? nobody even knows the real answer only what they ve heard or been taught.i dont want to seem ungrateful but at times i am so ungrateful when it comes to BAD things i encounter..Im a good person which is supposedly what we r supposed to be..whats the reward in that if we still have a future of loss ,death and sadness?We are on death row>WHY???? i did nothing wrong!!!???
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Other Mike said,
October 21, 2009 at 2:01 am
I believe in reincarnation. I think, everyone has to atone evrything he did wrong in his next life. You always get second chances and why shouldn’t a second chance exist, where you can atone?
About religion: I think every religion has points that are true or false… I don’t think there is THE ULTIMATE reliogion, that is through and through true.
About suicide: I don’t see suicide as a sin or something bad. Imagine your mother died when you were 4 years old and your dad takes you as a mother-alternative. With all that pain and humiliation, why shouldn’t it be allowed to kill yourself, be eased from all that pain in heaven and finally get the peace and rest you’ve always hankered after… I don’t think God would punish her, just for killing herself.