Well I”m home everyone.  My two to three week stay at WWRC became a too fast four weeks.  And I totally loved it there.  I figured that I would and as you all know was afraid of that, I was afraid that I wouldn’t want to leave.  Guess what, I didn’t.  It wasn’t just the place that I didn’t want to leave either but the friends that I made.  Yes it’s true, so shy Amanda who stays to herself and hides from the everso bright side of life, where all those alive are, actually made some friends.  I hope some lifelong friendships.  And ya’ll know me, it is so much easier to talk to guys, so most of the friends were guys.  There were a few females too though.  But I do gotta say there are some fine guys there ladies, but they’re all mine hahaha!    Oh and GOD must’ve had a really good sense of humor when HE decided to send me there because all the guys but one had big, brown eyes.  Ya’ll know I have a thing for brown eyes right?  And the only one who didn’t had these dreamy blue eyes.  Ya know who ya are, Brent. 

So I met some pretty awesome people.  In fact, I do believe my life will be forever changed because of them.  Especially Tony.  Yes, Tony, I’m blogging about you.  He let me know what it feels like to really knows there is someone who cares.  And looking into those magnificently GOD had to make them brown eyes I could tell that he was for real.  Most people just act like they care and won’t look you in the eyes afraid you’ll know, but not him.  He looked me straight in the eyes.  Ya know, eyes are the windows to the soul and if you look deep into someone’s eyes it is like you can almost feel their soul.  Hehehe, I think I have a little bit of a crush.  But I’m sure he knows that.

The first day I got there I had the priveledge of metting two of the sweetest and kindest souls to be found, Ti and Claudia.  Claudia was the first that I approached because she was quiet like me.  Ti on the other hand was anything but quiet.  She has an opinion on everything and isn’t afraid to make sure that everyone knows what it might be.  Again like me but instead of cowardly hiding behind written words on an internet blog she energetically uses her mouth to express her ideas.  Claudia went home early but hopefully we will meet again someday.  Tiara is still there, no doubt telling someone off.  HAHAHA!

It was so strange to see everyone there and know that even the normal looking ones had some sort of disability.  Some just aren’t as aparent as a big, purple wheelchair.  And then to see that a lot of them had problems that makes what’s wrong with me seem to be nothing.  I watched them all still going about their lives, happy, content, and with goals for their futures.  And I was so inspiring to watch as they all rather than try tlive with whatever their limitation was they lived despite their disabilities, 

I’ve done a lot of soul searching in the past few weeks.  Even moreso in the past few days.  There’s a lot about my life that I don’t like, but ya’ll knew that, that is going to have to change.  I have no idea how that is going to all be done yet but I know that it has to, somehow, someway….  I’ve done a lot of thinking about me as well.  And that is definately going to have to change.  I’m the one who just sits here as life happens to her crying instead of doing anything to at least try to make it different.  *(See Tony, I was listening!)*  I have a lot to work on!  First step, get out of this house, for good!

I also did a lot of thinking about my husband and our marraige.  A LOT!  Trying to figure out why it is that I love him as much as I do.  Ya know what, dispite all the crying and thinking and crying some more the conclusion I came to is I just do. 

Tonight I got to talk to Christian for the first time in over three weeks.  His voice sounded like a voice straight from heaven itself.  He missed me!  And he is actually wanting to come out here to spend a whole weekend with me!  He never WANTS to come for but just a day.  Hearing him say I love you waa like a gift from GOD.  Actually it was because he is nothing less than an exquisite gift from GOD!

Well, I’m shutting up for tonight.  Thanks to all for your prayers while I was gone and thanks to all who are still remembering me in their prayers.

Goodnight Christian.  I love you all the way to heaven and back!

Goodnight Wally.  I love you too!