09.29.06
pray for Betsy
About a week ago a friend of mine who has FA like me spilled boiling water on herself and ended up in the hospital with horrible burns. Well when she got out she went into respiratory distress and ended up right back at the hospital. Her sister, who has FA too, says everyone is expecting her to die anytime now, she’s still in the hospital. I got this e-mail from her sister this morning.
because of the fa, our hearts and lungs are naturally bad and we both have diabetes. well, all of a sudden she had trouble breathing, refused a breathing tube, and went into diabeticketoacidosis, and to try to reverse that, the er docs overloaded her on iv fluids, so the fluids went into her lungs, which caused the congestive heart failure. she’s a mess. <BR>
Everyone please keep her and her family in your prayers. Her name is Betsy and she is only 24. Makes me think about how lucky I truly am that this horrible disease hasn’t progressed as far with me yet as it does with most my age.
GOD stay with Betsy. Keep her in the palm of your hand and let her know she is safe with YOU. It was only a couple weeks ago she wrote that her most missed memory prior to the FA is getting in bed by herself. LORD, if you do take her let her not be scared and instead know that she is coming to spend eternity with you, with no more FA, ever. But GOD if you will, make her stronger and help her get through this. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen, and Amen.
Goodnight Christian and Wally. I love y’all!
Powered by Qumana
09.19.06
dinosaurs
Tonight I have been participating in a very heated discussion on dinosaurs, the Bible, and the idea that those first six biblical days were actually billions of years per day span. I am curious to hear all you readers’ opinions on these topics. When were dinosaurs here and what happened to them? Were the first six days of the world mentioned in the Bible actual 24 hour days, or were they time eras that consisted of billions and billions of years?
Here are a couple of my replies on the forum.
This was a reply to a girl who said there was no sun in the beginning so those "days" had no 24 hour intervals to be timed by.
GOD made the day and night before animals, so there was a 24 hour day.<BR><BR>Genesis 1:16-19<BR><BR>And GOD made two great lights; the greater light to rule the day (the sun), and the lesser light to rule the night: he made the stars also. <BR><BR>And GOD set them apart in the firmament of the heaven to give light upon the earth, <BR><BR>And to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness: and GOD saw that it was good.<BR><BR>And the evening and the morning were the fourth day.<BR><BR><BR>Fifty years ago, the idea of a biblical day being billion of years rather than a day like the Bible says was unheard of. The Bible was the world’s main history book for so many hundreds of years with little questioning. But when scientists come up with the idea of the world being billions of years old they make the world "think" there are truths between the actual words in the Bible. They try to conform the statements in THE TRUTH to fit into their ideas rather than make their ideas fit into the one and only UNLIMATE TRUTH. <BR><BR>One day, coming soon, everyone will know the trut
And this was a reply to a girl who said that science is nothing but a study for the world to be able to know how GOD created everything.
True. But science in itself can be destructive to the soul, or that is how I see it. What was Eve told not to eat from? And what did satan use to cause the fall of man? The tree of knowledge of good and evil. I think one of satan’s greatest strengths is knowledge. Some knowledge that perhaps we were never supposed to have. And he slips all this false knowledge in, false knowledge that is pure evil and causes us, GOD’s children, to question all that he wrote for us. The way I see it, the more knowledge we as a race obtain, the farther we seperate ourselves from our maker. Especially when we believe all that false knowledge. In the past one hundred years look at how much smarter the world has become. Now look at this same world in the past one hundred years and how much more evil and destruction there is.
Let me know what all of you think about these topics. I’m very curious about all of this. My little boy just loves dinosaurs, and I would like to be able to explain to him about them the truth instead of him learning in school the first day of pre-k that they are prehistoric from billions of years ago. I think if the Bible can’t be taught in school then neither should the world being billions of years old or evolution. The BIBLE went against some people’s religious right, what about thosed of us who what is being taught goes against what we KNOW?
Goodnight Christian. I love you!
Please join my discussion here.
Powered by Qumana
09.12.06
horrible
I’ve had a horrible day. HORRIBLE! I woke up this morning again trying to find an excuse to be awake. I sat here until this evening on the verge of tears, not knowing why, but not wanting to let myself cry. I knew something was about to break lose, and I had dreamed something about my grandma so knew it was going to have something to do with her, but didn’t know what. I think maybe my soul was trying to prepare my heart for another crash.
It’s a long story, but in the end the world crashed around me. My uncle, go figure, was at the center of it all even though he wasn’t here. It gets me how this family is by him. I think it is sad. Anyone who knows me can tell you I’m not a very emotionally stable person, not by far. Since I was eleven or so I have had a very hard life. I’ve dealt with being suicidal since childhood, been depressed since GOD only knows, sad all the time, horrible self esteem, almost none at all, just a pitiful excuse for life who sits here wasting space.. For the past two years life has hit near rock bottom and I can’t and won’t take much more. But does my family or anyone else care, no, they actually tell me to go ahead and get it over with. Supportive eh? But get this, my uncle, the family beloved, threatens killing himself last week and guess what, all goes bullistic. The family’s in panic. I can’t understand it. And when I defend the child who is being punished and shoved aside in all this, my grandma, yes little old cute granny, threatens me and mine. How dare she? Where does she get off? And then she goes as far as to threaten me with something that SHE let happen to me for years as a child. It’s what has screwed me up the most in this life. What happened I have forgiven and forgotten, but no, she still uses it to threaten me. And I didn’t even do it!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
If it wasn’t for Christian and my belief that GOD is restoring my marraige, I wouldn’t do this anymore. If I didn’t kill myself, I’d go to a mental hospital or a nursing home far from here and lock myself away from everyone and everything for the rest of my time. I know without a doubt in my mind if I had a gun I would not think twice about blowing my brains out. But I think of Christian. I would want him to know I love him and that will never die and that me not being in his life in the long run would be best for him rather than having me around to screw everything up. But I know he would probably be told I just didn’t want him or didn’t love him enough.
GOD, You said you wouldn’t give me anymore than I can bear. Well, this is too much. I can’t do this and I know tomorrow is going to be harder than today. Help me, please. If nothing else, give me a way out of this. Or just bring me home to You Yourself. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen, and Amen.
Powered by Qumana
The Ant and the Contact Lense
cliff, and now my sight is blurry."
She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the
ledge. But it just wasn’t there.
She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying. She prayed
for calm, and she prayed that she may fin! d her contact lens.
clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found. Although she was calm
now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly
see across the range of mountains. She thought of the bible verse "The eyes
of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth."
She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know
every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please
help me."
Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the
cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the
cliff. One of them shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact
lens?"
Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber
saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock,
carrying it!
The story doesn’t end there. Brenda’s father is a cartoonist. When
she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact
lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the
caption, "Lord, I don’t know why You want me to carry this thing. I can’t
eat it, and it’s awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I’ll
carry it for You."
I think it would do all of us some good to say, "God, I don’t know
why You want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it’s
awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will."
God doesn’! t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.
Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He
keeps me functioning
each and every day. Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him..I can
do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)
This is a simple test. If you love GOD and are not ashamed of all
the marvelous things He has done for you, send this to ten people and the
person who sent it to you.
Powered by Qumana
love letters
Well I did it. I managed to keep my thought to myself while he was here, well mostly. I think the guy did think it strange that I kept quiet all evening though. But ya know, I don’t think he really cared. Tonight is the first time I do believe that I have ever seen anyone look at my mother with that much love in their eyes. And it wasn’t the typical guy look either, he looked straight into her eyes all night. Like he was trying to grasp every ounce of who she is. Wow. I could tell this man still loves her, a true love, one that never fades.
Okay I’ve went on and on about this guy without writing who he is. His name is Trig. Mom has told me about him my whole life and has always said she wonders where he is and how his life has been. He was her first love. She dated him almost four years and broke it off to get married to her first husband. She always said how she broke his heart and remembered him crying when she did it.. Well all these years she hasn’t seen or talked to him once. All she knew was the area he lived in and that he was married. Well last year she found out that his wife had died. Since then she got his phone number from someone, and since then has been wanting to call to tell him that she is sorry about his wife. Last week she came in one evening saying she was going to call. I’m like right, you know you won’t. Then she went around for a while trying to get up the nerve to do it and I told her just call and get it over with. I told her if she didn’t and something ends up happening to him she would always have that to wonder about. So she finally called. And guess what. He told her that all these years he has thought about her and wondered about her and that this past year he has been wanting to call and was afraid she was married or something. You should have seen how happy it made her. And tonight they met somewhere and he came back here to talk and catch up. He kept his eyes on hers the whole time he was here. It was so sweet.
The night didn’t go down without major drama though. But at least it wasn’t me this time. Jes came in screaming and in pain and Mom and Mama were running around worried to death. I had a pretty good idea what was wrong as did DJ, but yet again it didn’t matter. So she gets better then there’s drama with DJ and his step-dad. He punched the wall and ran off. The cops show up. Jes finds him and brings him here to finish calming down. He told his mom it was hit the wall or my uncle so he chose the wall. But he’ll end up in trouble again when it so wasn’t his fault. And ya know hearing this family make endless excuses for my uncle just get to me deep, so I end up telling everyone to shut up and stop making excuses and just make the man take his meds. If they don’t I can already see what happens, a certain female puts him in the looney bin.
Enough of that. I’ve been thinking about something. I was thinking today, no one has ever really written me an actual love letter. I thought of all those letters that I wrote to Wally while he was in jail. He told me a few weeks ago that he had been reading them and I wondered if he ever did really read them and could he feel my heart in the words I wrote. And I thought about how heartbroken I would be to find out that he hadn’t. Then it came to me. Someone has written me a love letter, the best love letter of all time, GOD’s own love letter, the Bible. And I thought about how it breaks HIS heart and how sad HE must be when we don’t take the time to read the letters of love that HE sent to us. Wow! People read GOD’s personal love letters to each and every one of you.
Goodnight Christian and Wally. I love y’all!
Powered by Qumana
